I’m thinking about anxiety and how it manifests itself. A trigger pops up when you least expect it. One minute you’re happy, joking and enjoying the game you’re participating in with people you like. The next minute you’re judging yourself as not being as worthwhile as the next person. Not even as worthwhile as anyone else in the room! You freeze up. Your game is off. You need to relax but you can’t do that. Part of you wants to go home, crawl into bed and pull the covers over your head. But you’ve experienced this before. Maybe for all the days of your life. You know it will go away but the question is when? Someone tells a joke or you hear music or maybe you accidentally do something you’re proud of? The sun rises once more and you wonder why you felt so insignificant earlier?
Archive for December, 2021
Guess we triple-dosers are becoming disillusioned upon learning that we are still not completely immune to the Covid 19 virus. But I don’t think we should cast blame upon those brilliant minds who have been valiantly fighting this invading miscroscopic alien creature. The virus was brand new to health science researchers and pretty darn scary when it began spreading throughout the human world in late 2019. Researchers had basic references on file to other somewhat similar viruses (including the deadly SARS epidemic which luckily did not reach Western Canada before it was stopped in its tracks) It helped them to come up with basic recipes on how to concoct an effective vaccine. But the recipe was vague so they had to change dosages etc as a cook would vary the number of eggs to make the best cake. And the wee virus kept changing as viruses do in their collective need to survive. So apparently the little €££÷:”% can now take over the world. But apparently in doing so, this latest varient has lost its deadliness. We are (hopefully) left with something similar to the influenza virus which can be controlled to an extent by yearly doses of a vaccine.
I caught the influenza bug one year from my wee grandaughters and generously gave it to my husband. We were so sick that we vowed never to skip our yearly shots. We never had side effects from the various vaccine ingredients and I have never regretted having the shots. I’ve been sick, but never as sick as when I got the full dose of flu from my cute little granddaughters.
I have often wished the general public could understand that schizophrenia is a disease, not a character flaw. And it is not caused by a specific happening in their lives. It can strike anyone, usually a young person whose brain chemical compilation – for whatever reason – becomes disordered. Schizophenia has been categorized as a mental illness but is recently being recategorized as a nuerological disease. Perhaps people will now understand that the sufferer is not responsible for his/her disease.
Why doesn’t schizophrenia hail
Higher on the compassion scale?
Phycoses symptoms don’t include
Blood that’s oozing from a wound
Fever, cramps and severed limbs
Diseases with prognoses grim
We cannot SEE a mind
To sights and sounds
That are distracting
Voices shouting in their ear
Too many suffer